goblin who is not my enemy
goblin who looms at my edges
waiting for sunlight
to tug at the curtains
to run out
clasp at my heel
not enemy not saboteur
nor the unkind words of loved ones
mist that hangs
in air
after spasm stillness
footprints
in wet grass
who is neither loved
nor unloved
who waits
for a succession of moments
that come to nothing
swirl of your dust
your sadness, your trying-again
you who are not entirely my enemy
even now
withdraw my medication
I watch from some distance
that all things of the body
are sort of holy
sort of terrible
faintly irresistible,
compulsion itself
just the shadow
into which words fall
when voice stops
in this world
moves elsewhere
please don't burn so hard so fast
for the smoke offends my fucking eyes also of my friends here
at the next table
O I must have words
with you in your dart of sunlight
goblin of my heart
my own wordless night
here we are beyond recall rolling rolling
she pounds the table (who pounds the...?):
1. Remember this time damn it the waves,
the count the clock all of it remember she says remember...
2. this croupier no one you ever knew just a door banging in a wind
a hand reaching for you so much as start to breathe ugly how you do
beyond recall:
goblin of my spinning
flame in the day
goblin hands that reach to catch
hands that pull away
goblin of the heart's engulfing
roll the old yellow dice
No comments:
Post a Comment