your ghost came to me in dreams
still young and confused
and asked me why I was gone
I said I looked into the future
and didn't find you there
I looked and looked
in the rocking and the creaking
of our mother's armchair
where your hair once shone
like a mat of gold stuff
and I couldn't find you there
and now all my days all my days
don't contain you
and I can't answer
and I can't not
and this is me forever
clutching at the last wisps of you
filled with this failure
of not standing firm
against that awful tide
that I saw coming
and that I too became
and it's Autumn now
and you won't be there
in caravans and campfires
and the orchard's low glides
you are a hole in the air
that no nature abhors
that nature elides
and I wish you would sleep
and I wish you would not sleep
little lost friend
not even a peep
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