all up the road
me and my boys
overarched by great snows
sastrugi, I mean
I mean like watch out
a huge sculpture might fall on you as
you walk
All we will know is your silly little legs
kicking next Spring
when we come looking
Jesus we might eat you by mistake
thinking of which
all along this path have been witches
throwing care to the wind
and it seems unlikely now
that the wind
ever caught it
we shouldn't ever walk on this dark path again
oh God let's right now retrace our steps
and make this right
dumbass, we're stuck here forever
don't you see?
and look how big the sky
with its face full of crying
Monday, March 26, 2018
Sunday, March 18, 2018
Now there is snow again. A few days ago, when it was dark and snowy, the deer came down -- five of them -- and hid in that little trench which used to supply the mill. There is a tunnel there, and maybe they use the tunnel for refuge or something. I think about these deer quite a lot. They are small and fragile things with thin legs, but also very hardy. One of them crashed past the door in a state of fright last summer. I want to reassure them, but they are reluctant to speak my language. I think of them in the snow. Really, I would like them to come to the door and eat titbits from my hand. I wonder what the ideal deer food would be. Hello, little deer, I would say, whilst offering beans on toast. Would you like to come in for a coffee? Maybe I haven't got this quite right yet. They looked at us warily anyway, and their eyes shone like broken glass in police lights.
how to write pertreh
there were flowers. they were small but colourful and they reminded even the sheep of death. we stopped for moments to admire them. there was a stream also and it ran past.we looked at the stream. in its shimmer and stony gleam. it ran indifferently. far along the stream was a great hill where water gathered. this, this was the great and ancient story of that.
Thursday, March 08, 2018
Tsundoku
Well who doesn't like getting new books through the door? Mmm, it always excites me a bit, and then I don't read them anyway as I generally think that somehow if I surround myself with the right books then some kind of cognitive word-osmosis must occur. I haven't known this to work yet, but if anyone would like to see my Amazon receipts you can see that I'm trying very hard at the osmosis theory.
Monday, January 29, 2018
just what I've been through; it's nothing like what I'm going to -- The Violent Femmes
Emily must have sat here
looking at things
perhaps the same things
which now bite my legs
and then roar up
the non-road, the track thing
where I lost my phone
one day in the ferns
the same things, oh
all of it is about
a small girl trying
40,000 bodies in Haworth graveyard
it is almost impossible
Triumph Bonneville
oh, nothing
looking at things
perhaps the same things
which now bite my legs
and then roar up
the non-road, the track thing
where I lost my phone
one day in the ferns
the same things, oh
all of it is about
a small girl trying
40,000 bodies in Haworth graveyard
it is almost impossible
Triumph Bonneville
oh, nothing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sqwFR3dl5IE
.stars, yes, but why?
I wish you lived next door. If you didn't like me I would leave you alone. Perhaps very occasionally I would take your bin around, but not so often that you would think I was attempting to make a point or inveigle you into my dreams of bins and neighbours and things. Sometimes, when the moon was high, we might meet outside in the cold with our bins, and regard each other. You would not trust me but we would chat a little and shuffle our feet, and I would go back, deflated, to my routines. One far off day, despite your reservations, you would invite me to a river, and I would say yes. Both of us would be nearly dead, and there would be a waterfall, and we would both wonder why
it took so fucking long.
.
15 million pirates suddenly confounded
some weather systems
I almost
then a small bird
perhaps lost
perhaps they have spare ones
but I
even through the glass
bang bang bang
they said, and I
not yet but trying
hard so hard I was trying
don't know who I was, though
maybe perhaps possibly
my tiny beak or analogue of my beak
aches and says
yes I would
if only my pecking
could be wider
wider if only
it was wider
and could
.
.
I almost
then a small bird
perhaps lost
perhaps they have spare ones
but I
even through the glass
bang bang bang
they said, and I
not yet but trying
hard so hard I was trying
don't know who I was, though
maybe perhaps possibly
my tiny beak or analogue of my beak
aches and says
yes I would
if only my pecking
could be wider
wider if only
it was wider
and could
.
.
stifled dances of the dead people
all poetry ends in collapse
when the gimmicks are over
we only do this for so long
this equating, this anger, this conflation
which is what it is
stuck together by verve
now we must talk urgently
of dead submariners
their hoarding of breath
their trinkets, their stifled youth
I don't feel like a disease yet
I don't feel like a disease yet
a friend told me she was/is
a poor feminist as she was/is
too forgiving
I am not forgiving
not in that way
they put me in prison
for trying at 4am
not to be an illness
down there with not much left
I promise I have not even one
little song of you
just a choke and a feeling
of great and pressured darkness
inescapable dark
with such light
with goats dancing
on some silver ceiling
it is all about goats now, and what they do
it's not about peoples
not now
.
.
when the gimmicks are over
we only do this for so long
this equating, this anger, this conflation
which is what it is
stuck together by verve
now we must talk urgently
of dead submariners
their hoarding of breath
their trinkets, their stifled youth
I don't feel like a disease yet
I don't feel like a disease yet
a friend told me she was/is
a poor feminist as she was/is
too forgiving
I am not forgiving
not in that way
they put me in prison
for trying at 4am
not to be an illness
down there with not much left
I promise I have not even one
little song of you
just a choke and a feeling
of great and pressured darkness
inescapable dark
with such light
with goats dancing
on some silver ceiling
it is all about goats now, and what they do
it's not about peoples
not now
.
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Sunday, January 21, 2018
The Triggerfish Critical Review No 19.
Latest TCR is out, guest-edited by Lynn Otto, who is one of our fellow 'advisory editors.' Well done to Lynn for an excellent job.
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Friday, December 29, 2017
For Alfie and Louie, both
I know I have to lose you
for you to become what you will be
but just for this moment
for you to become what you will be
but just for this moment
stop by the wayside and look, while
we still have looking in us, together
at this instant, despite its being
we still have looking in us, together
at this instant, despite its being
manufactured by me for my needs
and spare me this, for perhaps it is
a miracle anyway, just this stopping
and spare me this, for perhaps it is
a miracle anyway, just this stopping
and looking, at what it is
this tiny thing, which possibly
neither of us would otherwise have
this tiny thing, which possibly
neither of us would otherwise have
noticed, and which is now
almost the apocalypse. let's
just look and hold hands
almost the apocalypse. let's
just look and hold hands
in the last moments of you still being
my little boy, our last breath
of love like this, looking together
at something inexpressible, falling
apart as we do it. Can we ever capture this
while the sun breaks our entire world?
my little boy, our last breath
of love like this, looking together
at something inexpressible, falling
apart as we do it. Can we ever capture this
while the sun breaks our entire world?
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Saturday, December 23, 2017
religion becoming culturally relativistic
so this donkey with a really short face walks into a bar and the barman says hey why the long...
your next word is really really fucking important, says the donkey
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Thursday, December 21, 2017
Wednesday, December 13, 2017
The Duodeniad
La Rage—sing, goddess, of the RAGE of Achilles
the Pope now has an HIV-infected Gay lover
—this has led to a considerable softening of his position
regarding the use of condoms
words that won't wash out: tubetrain/rucsack/Krak des Chevaliers
the Chinese eat cats like crackers
but that's nothing to the French
who drown young beaked boys in Armagnac
bury them in woodland in Spring let it all mulch down to thick soup
they swear by the fortifying properties
his vegetal body his machine massif
his midriff his central nervous plexus a clock
a barometer to be tapped and adjusted
it tracks responsively the snaking isobars set it in train
like a Victorian clockwork golem
trained to follow a bannister commit strangulation upon
a sleeper on the highest floor he intends instead
the meridians of psychic commerce every time that she
walks in the room rage sing of rage golem sing of
Aung San Suu Kyi at one end of a telescope
a little uniformed general with his mouth grinding the other
like a cat with nothing else
rage sing of rage he says all silly with a new bike and hat
North Utsire/South Utsire: a sea giant moderate to good
occasionally poor at first
who could love your face so full of interior disfigurement?
the Vatican explains that on a case by casis it has never opposed
the use of condoms if you have been kidnapped by Islamist baboons
force you to commit acts of disgusting coitus on a monkey
but regret that you will still attend the 7th Hell on the grounds
that to be able to commit said act at all you must have had something
going on
we took me and some friends took control of the world sometime yesterday
in ways too subtle yet to be understood
I have decided not to give up wanking
there is a pleasant place just outside Hell where you wait
until the Pope catches up
it's all just a formality now
papers and ID please how often did you do it
were you married no well in here please
try to cool it in the waiting room there will be opportunity later
the Vatican explains that it has never been opposed to the use of
trained monkeys for sex
The Papa has issued clarification-condoms
Hunkpapa winewall at the margo
in eery breathbasks
the Pope now has an HIV-infected Gay lover
—this has led to a considerable softening of his position
regarding the use of condoms
words that won't wash out: tubetrain/rucsack/Krak des Chevaliers
the Chinese eat cats like crackers
but that's nothing to the French
who drown young beaked boys in Armagnac
bury them in woodland in Spring let it all mulch down to thick soup
they swear by the fortifying properties
his vegetal body his machine massif
his midriff his central nervous plexus a clock
a barometer to be tapped and adjusted
it tracks responsively the snaking isobars set it in train
like a Victorian clockwork golem
trained to follow a bannister commit strangulation upon
a sleeper on the highest floor he intends instead
the meridians of psychic commerce every time that she
walks in the room rage sing of rage golem sing of
Aung San Suu Kyi at one end of a telescope
a little uniformed general with his mouth grinding the other
like a cat with nothing else
rage sing of rage he says all silly with a new bike and hat
North Utsire/South Utsire: a sea giant moderate to good
occasionally poor at first
who could love your face so full of interior disfigurement?
the Vatican explains that on a case by casis it has never opposed
the use of condoms if you have been kidnapped by Islamist baboons
force you to commit acts of disgusting coitus on a monkey
but regret that you will still attend the 7th Hell on the grounds
that to be able to commit said act at all you must have had something
going on
we took me and some friends took control of the world sometime yesterday
in ways too subtle yet to be understood
I have decided not to give up wanking
there is a pleasant place just outside Hell where you wait
until the Pope catches up
it's all just a formality now
papers and ID please how often did you do it
were you married no well in here please
try to cool it in the waiting room there will be opportunity later
the Vatican explains that it has never been opposed to the use of
trained monkeys for sex
The Papa has issued clarification-condoms
Hunkpapa winewall at the margo
in eery breathbasks
Saturday, December 09, 2017
'The Nearest of the Faraway Places'
I interviewed artist/sculptor Duncan Moon a while back for The Triggerfish Critical Review. He has since finished the work around which much of the interview focused, so here is a link to an article about it with some pictures, and the interview is available through the links on the righthand side of this page:
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Monday, December 04, 2017
a retired sign language interpreter
who could say in the dust and ash and poverty
of the million tiny moments and decisions which
cumulatively brought him to this wet and solitary
place in a cul de sac somewhere in north Leeds
whether it was the breaking of a relationship he
had so tried to break without breaking or the death
and deaths of brothers or the constant repetition
of hand movements and the assumption of
a persona so unlike that he espouses outside
of such contexts but the real life one perhaps
imagines there in the lush grass exchanged
for this barren garret this gibbet this social
housing with broken things in what passes
for 'garden' in this new world already old before
he arrives. it has a small balcony from which
one may observe other, similar buildings
wherein similar breakings continue quietly,
generally, with little exterior fanfare beyond
an occasional smashing or roaring which soon
dies down or is sucked inside to invisibility
or perhaps transmuted into posture, gait,
the distortion of musculature, character
armouring, pathology, the inevitability
of ill health and depression. the balcony
it must be noted, an invitation to a rainy
pendulum into a dramatic public cessation
.
of the million tiny moments and decisions which
cumulatively brought him to this wet and solitary
place in a cul de sac somewhere in north Leeds
whether it was the breaking of a relationship he
had so tried to break without breaking or the death
and deaths of brothers or the constant repetition
of hand movements and the assumption of
a persona so unlike that he espouses outside
of such contexts but the real life one perhaps
imagines there in the lush grass exchanged
for this barren garret this gibbet this social
housing with broken things in what passes
for 'garden' in this new world already old before
he arrives. it has a small balcony from which
one may observe other, similar buildings
wherein similar breakings continue quietly,
generally, with little exterior fanfare beyond
an occasional smashing or roaring which soon
dies down or is sucked inside to invisibility
or perhaps transmuted into posture, gait,
the distortion of musculature, character
armouring, pathology, the inevitability
of ill health and depression. the balcony
it must be noted, an invitation to a rainy
pendulum into a dramatic public cessation
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Magical Elements in Wuthering Heights.
There are three potentially magical or supernatural episodes in 'Wuthering Heights,' in which mirrors or windows – possibly even eyes – act as some sort of lenses, and perhaps portals, through which time seems to slip. The first is when Mr Lockwood breaks the window in Catherine's old bed-chamber and encounters her ghost wailing to get back in, telling him that "it's been twenty years" (which is accurate, but which Lockwood can't yet have known). Entering the room, Heathcliff quickly reads the situation, and, banishing Lockwood, attempts to call Catherine back through the window — to no avail at this point, though it may be through a window that she later comes to join him.
The second event seems to mirror this scene, as though the two are connected across time; it occurs just before Catherine dies at Thrushcross Grange, tended by Nelly Dean. She looks into a mirror and sees a greatly aged Nelly, but sees also her old room at the Heights, with a "black press" to confirm the location. There is no black press in her room at the Grange, but there IS such a black clothes press in Cathy's old bedroom at the Heights (a 'press' or 'clothes press' is an old-fashioned clothes cupboard).
“The black press,” says Nelly, “where is that?” “It's against the wall, as it always is,” says Cathy. But she also sees another face there, which she does not recognise: “Don't you see that face? […] Oh! Nelly, the room is haunted!”
“The black press,” says Nelly, “where is that?” “It's against the wall, as it always is,” says Cathy. But she also sees another face there, which she does not recognise: “Don't you see that face? […] Oh! Nelly, the room is haunted!”
Could this be Lockwood's face, twenty years in the future, peering out from Cathy's old room? If not then whose face? It has no coherent function in the narrative otherwise. Is this the moment when Lockwood and Cathy see each other through the window of Cathy's old bedroom? Just prior to this episode we are signalled that we have entered some magical space and time when Catherine says that her bed is at this moment the "fairy cave beneath Penistone Crag" – presumably a place with preternatural possibilities.
The third magical event comes when Heathcliff dies: Nelly notices his bedroom window is wide open, with the rain blowing in, and then finds him dead in bed, smiling, with his eyes also wide open, as if to echo these open glassy channels across death and time. What else could have enabled Heathcliff to die smiling like that, unless Catherine has somehow bridged an impossible divide and they have been reunited? Of course Emily Brontë leaves us with the suggestion that their ghosts are indeed now united, and have even been seen walking together, but has this been accomplished by this through-lined literary device of the windows and the mirror, and even the eyes?
Emily clearly devises and constructs these episodes to suggest that the supernatural elements might possibly be real rather than imaginary – for how else would Lockwood know of the twenty years gulf; why would Heathcliff be smiling, even in death; and why would his window (recalling the previous windows and the mirror) be open to the rain?
And – if we are not supposed to consider these supernatural intrusions as real – why would the sheep at the end of the book refuse to walk past "t' nab" after the shepherd boy has sighted the two ghosts there? The boy's weeping and fear might be explicable by superstition and ghostly gossip, but how is one to explain the behaviour of those sheep? Yes, sheep could be influenced by the behaviour and responses of the human shepherding them, but that really is not what Emily meant. She wanted us at least to consider the possibility that Cathy and Heathcliff had genuinely made it, and were together again at last.
Wednesday, November 29, 2017
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
SHINE
after a few weeks of this new start
though she could see he was trying
she could also see that it wasn't working
oh she loved him and everything
but she couldn't keep living through this
like this
for ever
& so one night when he was fucked up
she slipped the gun
into his open mouth
blew his head all over the wall
behind the bed
where they had made their babies
she sat there afterwards for a while
cried a little
made some cocoa
read a Stephen King novel
until she fell asleep
in the night she cuddled him
in his dark uncomplicated wetness
(Published in 'Burning Gorgeous' 2010)
(Published in 'Burning Gorgeous' 2010)
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Thursday, November 23, 2017
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
Slut (work in progress)
...nearer to the sun and air—wind in the willows
i am the son and the heir—the smiths
yeah, man, the elements—anon
I want to be in the sunny place
[she says points]
—points across the valley—
(like John County Clare
magicking a far-off sheep)
even to use that word is abuse
yes, the s-word (or its many toxic siblings
for it cannot be—is itself
an act of self-negative life-negative
sexual colonization
—Alice Aforethought
oh oh how elemental oh how mythic
she cries out above, 'cross the valley
but now /(she feels silly.and. her voice
is weak and unconvincing
(Librivox audiobooks:
the American woman reading Herodotus
pronounces Herakles to rhyme
with some plural of hysterical)
although one cannot quibble
at such democratizat or ask this of the lulz
—how much is left to go, Eli?
is it so very hard to die?
(ells left to go, many ells: strange, almost
Dada Nells from Imbros)
" 'We think,' they say, " 'that it is unjust
to carry women off, but to be anxious
to avenge rape is foolish—wise men
take no notice of such things' "—
attrib' 'The Persians'—Herodotus.
[the legal heirs to 'treasure L'
from the Calvert mound-side
of Hisarlik in dispute with
the Pushkin—Sophie Schliemann
arrayed in gold—who now
can say what when
— for thereof the arcsin of width/length
.4 indicates a 24 degree angle of *spatter*
.·´¯`·.´¯`·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸><(((º>,
the bullet and the rainbow
this will apply equally: archaeology/geology
..........................as murder
the trajectory the rainbow the drift the erratics the spatter
extrusion and intrusion/the rapid cooling or the slow
—rate of insect attack post mortem
and after all this it was not after all
the black rats but infacto the gerbils
proliferate [adj] one malbenign sommer
in northern Chine in Mongolia
what spread the buboes of after all blackdeath
to Europus—
on the backs of the Mongol hordes—Simon Schama
go easy, go slow, Schliemann
says Calvert, alarmed at the sight
of a million spades. axes, steam hammers, explosives
most of all the robot tank-moles
such industry, such heedless illustry
he will cry
..........................so shall we all, breathless child of the hill
.........................(thief of future past)—Madeleine Shine. 2008.
it merely means 'work,' says Heinrich
read Kapek when I hear the word
I reach for my Hanns Johst
when I hear the heart says Reich
I reach for my Brownian Motion
to rouse us, Waring, who's alive?
for the time has come the walrus said
to live of many things—Madeleine Shine. 2008.
*lustration (come back to this point?)*
"I don't know what to do"
—Anon 2015
these words uttered listlessly:
give me a look like a hostage crisis
(a culebra cut in Trojan prophylactic gold)
is this enough, Eli?
is it so very hard to die?
is bucket a compound noun?
is mama a compound noun-well
a clerkenwell (Oh well—John Winston Smith the Resignation-Lennon)
"I will try my best for that not to happen
if I feel suspicious I will
throw THROW it out of my head"
for we are holding a drug bee a writing bee
a sex bee a cookery bee a future bee a bee to be
—unknown; possibly from ben, a prayer or prayer meeting—
it is only formally and foolishly fortunate that we are not apiarists
(for what do you call it when a bunch of apiarists
gather to tend and discuss their livestock?
for though Anglo-Saxon, it rhymes
with the Arabic word for darling)
[shibari kinbaku lingchi -- come back to this?]
the kessel envisaged as a giant hedgehog
From Middle English frithien, from Old English friþian (“to give frith to, make peace with, be at peace with, cherish, protect, guard, defend, keep, observe”), from Proto-Germanic*friþōną (“to make peace, secure, protect”), from Proto-Indo-European *prēy-, *prāy- (“to like, love”). Cognate with Scots frethe, freith (“to set free, liberate”), Danish frede (“to have peace, protect, inclose, fence in”), Swedish freda (“to cover, protect, quiet, inclose, fence in”), Icelandic friða (“to make peace, preserve”).
when you were gestating birthing fixing
what dreams were begat of the world?
Margaret Shakespeare died age 1 year 1563
400 years before one's birth, before the deaths of Huxley
Kennedy [Jelly Fish Kiss] Robert Frost, Sylvia
Plath, Edith Piaf, Patsy Cline, a bullet from
the back of a bush Medgar Evers, William
Carlos Williams, Tristan Tzara, Tough Tony,
Jean Cocteau, Georges
Braque, Theodore Roethke, Elmore
James I gather unto myself such magic harvest
in sustenance for the late survival of birth
such dreams for a year for which also
the invention of sex and the Beatles-also-born
in vinyl and Bond-born in celluloid—Profumo,
well one need not mention
[that Ulster-rendered 'now' is a clusterfuck
of /ah/aw/ee/ phonemes (visibility moderate
to good, becoming schwa later)
and high-rising/falling terminal becoming cyclonic
quite unlike the monotone English a-oo
(Utsire an island around which herring swim
far, a long-long...)]
evidence of an immortal typist-monkey
unearthed near Stratford where ever ...
(Miss Fay Wray, come down come down—
ever too high in the widening gyre and gimble
in the Dædalus of thine own inner hast borne
thee too lofted in the Empire inner statehood
whose freudian grillers now will tak thee back ...)
... to that sweep of sunlit snow across the valley
—but something had gone out in her
and would not come again)
and then he knew
that was not where
he was going
OR
another time-things: ice
OR
O dark traveller, click the hyper-link 'the Weshesh'
on the 'Sea-Peoples' page of Wikipedia
find out, at last
where we have been all along
bouncing along the corridor
we did not take
to the hall of mirrors
for humankind cannot bear
very much bouncing bloody reflection
OR
"Do you know Carl Garner, Brandon Garner
or Fast Eddie?"
I do not.
You don't have junk here (hooray!)
—Microsoft SmartScreen is working
to keep it out of your inbox too.
OR
in the 1980s I worked as a recreation assistant
in Meanwood Park Hospital in Leeds, running a 'music
and movement workshop' for the 'mentally
disabled' residents. once while exploring
in this incapacity I found a dried-out brain in a dish
in a sunny (unused) upstairs room. whose abandoned brain,
I wondered, was that, left there to dry
like so much cast-off-offal, uneaten?
OR
Dear Maria, before arrival in Umbria must we pass through Penumbria?
OR
Ladies and Gentlemen we are floating in space—Spiritualized
OR
Hold back the edges of your gowns, Ladies,
we are going through hell—William Carlos Williams
OR
Please expect a little turbulence, ladies and gentlemen;
there are monsters in our midst—Alice Aforethought 1988
.OR
to join the Mile High Club
you really have to give a flying fuck
"Ach, ja"—Der Rosenkavalier, Richard Strauss
i am the son and the heir—the smiths
yeah, man, the elements—anon
I want to be in the sunny place
[she says points]
—points across the valley—
(like John County Clare
magicking a far-off sheep)
even to use that word is abuse
yes, the s-word (or its many toxic siblings
for it cannot be—is itself
an act of self-negative life-negative
sexual colonization
—Alice Aforethought
oh oh how elemental oh how mythic
she cries out above, 'cross the valley
but now /(she feels silly.and. her voice
is weak and unconvincing
(Librivox audiobooks:
the American woman reading Herodotus
pronounces Herakles to rhyme
with some plural of hysterical)
although one cannot quibble
at such democratizat or ask this of the lulz
—how much is left to go, Eli?
is it so very hard to die?
(ells left to go, many ells: strange, almost
Dada Nells from Imbros)
" 'We think,' they say, " 'that it is unjust
to carry women off, but to be anxious
to avenge rape is foolish—wise men
take no notice of such things' "—
attrib' 'The Persians'—Herodotus.
[the legal heirs to 'treasure L'
from the Calvert mound-side
of Hisarlik in dispute with
the Pushkin—Sophie Schliemann
arrayed in gold—who now
can say what when
— for thereof the arcsin of width/length
.4 indicates a 24 degree angle of *spatter*
.·´¯`·.´¯`·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸><(((º>,
the bullet and the rainbow
this will apply equally: archaeology/geology
..........................as murder
the trajectory the rainbow the drift the erratics the spatter
extrusion and intrusion/the rapid cooling or the slow
—rate of insect attack post mortem
and after all this it was not after all
the black rats but infacto the gerbils
proliferate [adj] one malbenign sommer
in northern Chine in Mongolia
what spread the buboes of after all blackdeath
to Europus—
on the backs of the Mongol hordes—Simon Schama
go easy, go slow, Schliemann
says Calvert, alarmed at the sight
of a million spades. axes, steam hammers, explosives
most of all the robot tank-moles
such industry, such heedless illustry
he will cry
..........................so shall we all, breathless child of the hill
.........................(thief of future past)—Madeleine Shine. 2008.
it merely means 'work,' says Heinrich
read Kapek when I hear the word
I reach for my Hanns Johst
when I hear the heart says Reich
I reach for my Brownian Motion
to rouse us, Waring, who's alive?
for the time has come the walrus said
to live of many things—Madeleine Shine. 2008.
*lustration (come back to this point?)*
"I don't know what to do"
—Anon 2015
these words uttered listlessly:
give me a look like a hostage crisis
(a culebra cut in Trojan prophylactic gold)
is this enough, Eli?
is it so very hard to die?
is bucket a compound noun?
is mama a compound noun-well
a clerkenwell (Oh well—John Winston Smith the Resignation-Lennon)
"I will try my best for that not to happen
if I feel suspicious I will
throw THROW it out of my head"
for we are holding a drug bee a writing bee
a sex bee a cookery bee a future bee a bee to be
—unknown; possibly from ben, a prayer or prayer meeting—
it is only formally and foolishly fortunate that we are not apiarists
(for what do you call it when a bunch of apiarists
gather to tend and discuss their livestock?
for though Anglo-Saxon, it rhymes
with the Arabic word for darling)
[shibari kinbaku lingchi -- come back to this?]
the kessel envisaged as a giant hedgehog
From Middle English frithien, from Old English friþian (“to give frith to, make peace with, be at peace with, cherish, protect, guard, defend, keep, observe”), from Proto-Germanic*friþōną (“to make peace, secure, protect”), from Proto-Indo-European *prēy-, *prāy- (“to like, love”). Cognate with Scots frethe, freith (“to set free, liberate”), Danish frede (“to have peace, protect, inclose, fence in”), Swedish freda (“to cover, protect, quiet, inclose, fence in”), Icelandic friða (“to make peace, preserve”).
when you were gestating birthing fixing
what dreams were begat of the world?
Margaret Shakespeare died age 1 year 1563
400 years before one's birth, before the deaths of Huxley
Kennedy [Jelly Fish Kiss] Robert Frost, Sylvia
Plath, Edith Piaf, Patsy Cline, a bullet from
the back of a bush Medgar Evers, William
Carlos Williams, Tristan Tzara, Tough Tony,
Jean Cocteau, Georges
Braque, Theodore Roethke, Elmore
James I gather unto myself such magic harvest
in sustenance for the late survival of birth
such dreams for a year for which also
the invention of sex and the Beatles-also-born
in vinyl and Bond-born in celluloid—Profumo,
well one need not mention
[that Ulster-rendered 'now' is a clusterfuck
of /ah/aw/ee/ phonemes (visibility moderate
to good, becoming schwa later)
and high-rising/falling terminal becoming cyclonic
quite unlike the monotone English a-oo
(Utsire an island around which herring swim
far, a long-long...)]
evidence of an immortal typist-monkey
unearthed near Stratford where ever ...
(Miss Fay Wray, come down come down—
ever too high in the widening gyre and gimble
in the Dædalus of thine own inner hast borne
thee too lofted in the Empire inner statehood
whose freudian grillers now will tak thee back ...)
... to that sweep of sunlit snow across the valley
—but something had gone out in her
and would not come again)
and then he knew
that was not where
he was going
OR
another time-things: ice
OR
O dark traveller, click the hyper-link 'the Weshesh'
on the 'Sea-Peoples' page of Wikipedia
find out, at last
where we have been all along
bouncing along the corridor
we did not take
to the hall of mirrors
for humankind cannot bear
very much bouncing bloody reflection
OR
"Do you know Carl Garner, Brandon Garner
or Fast Eddie?"
I do not.
You don't have junk here (hooray!)
—Microsoft SmartScreen is working
to keep it out of your inbox too.
OR
in the 1980s I worked as a recreation assistant
in Meanwood Park Hospital in Leeds, running a 'music
and movement workshop' for the 'mentally
disabled' residents. once while exploring
in this incapacity I found a dried-out brain in a dish
in a sunny (unused) upstairs room. whose abandoned brain,
I wondered, was that, left there to dry
like so much cast-off-offal, uneaten?
OR
Dear Maria, before arrival in Umbria must we pass through Penumbria?
OR
Ladies and Gentlemen we are floating in space—Spiritualized
OR
Hold back the edges of your gowns, Ladies,
we are going through hell—William Carlos Williams
OR
Please expect a little turbulence, ladies and gentlemen;
there are monsters in our midst—Alice Aforethought 1988
.OR
to join the Mile High Club
you really have to give a flying fuck
"Ach, ja"—Der Rosenkavalier, Richard Strauss
Monday, November 20, 2017
Notes for a Poem about Cursing (revizh 2017)
Sister Sue, tell me baby, what are we gonna do?—Mink Deville
time has gone wrong here for no reason
it keeps swinging me back
..........................look it's like this
like you've had a sort of stroke
let me explain that there are flowers
where your hands should be
but what is this called he keeps asking
day and night with that look about him
you have a condition which means
you have to be careful what you think
he insisted there was a warning in the sky
but it was just electricity
humming & sparking
...........oh we told him right there and then:
.............................you've had an episode
.............................you are reassembling things
.............................without a plan
time has done something
there has been a catastrophic error
this poem has performed an illegal operation
& will now shut down
...........................the head and limbs are in the wrong places
...........................—it doesn't matter but some people
...........................will call it a monster
it went on for years
think of him as a boy facing the corner
in a pointed hat
is he a dunce or a magician
either way he's thinking something up
....................the thing is someone starts it
then you take over
and don't know
how to stop
[your screensaver is a vision of your own death
the naked one reaching for you in the leaf mould]
..........................that's all it is
the beat goes on & the beat goes on
hold the flowers up to your face
work them until you see fingers
this might take years
dip the flowers in hot wax
think them into dripping clusters
of language and light
a sort of stroke—you need to think hard now
what was it that did the stroking?
this computer has not recovered
...........................from a fatal error
.
.
(Published in Intercapillary Space April 09)
time has gone wrong here for no reason
it keeps swinging me back
..........................look it's like this
like you've had a sort of stroke
let me explain that there are flowers
where your hands should be
but what is this called he keeps asking
day and night with that look about him
you have a condition which means
you have to be careful what you think
he insisted there was a warning in the sky
but it was just electricity
humming & sparking
...........oh we told him right there and then:
.............................you've had an episode
.............................you are reassembling things
.............................without a plan
time has done something
there has been a catastrophic error
this poem has performed an illegal operation
& will now shut down
...........................the head and limbs are in the wrong places
...........................—it doesn't matter but some people
...........................will call it a monster
it went on for years
think of him as a boy facing the corner
in a pointed hat
is he a dunce or a magician
either way he's thinking something up
....................the thing is someone starts it
then you take over
and don't know
how to stop
[your screensaver is a vision of your own death
the naked one reaching for you in the leaf mould]
..........................that's all it is
the beat goes on & the beat goes on
hold the flowers up to your face
work them until you see fingers
this might take years
dip the flowers in hot wax
think them into dripping clusters
of language and light
a sort of stroke—you need to think hard now
what was it that did the stroking?
this computer has not recovered
...........................from a fatal error
.
.
(Published in Intercapillary Space April 09)
Saturday, November 18, 2017
eyelid bats modified
bats like rips in twilight
owls for now stolid as off-white statues
beaming in the boughs over the already black embankment above
hearing as we cannot
the shrieking of the bats
in the dead, electric
silence of dusk
.
Saturday, November 04, 2017
when you were tiny I carried
you on my back into the wind and snow
to explore the moors
and you didn't complain much
even when the snow blew into your ears
and both of us hurt a bit, but
I cushioned your little ears
and wrapped them up
you are too heavy for that now
and your exploring is beyond me
and now my heart is devastated
and doesn't quite know what to do
having turned itself so profoundly
to you
.
you on my back into the wind and snow
to explore the moors
and you didn't complain much
even when the snow blew into your ears
and both of us hurt a bit, but
I cushioned your little ears
and wrapped them up
you are too heavy for that now
and your exploring is beyond me
and now my heart is devastated
and doesn't quite know what to do
having turned itself so profoundly
to you
.
Saturday, October 28, 2017
Modernist Visions of the City: Joyce's 'The Dead' and Langston Hughes's poetry of Harlem.
At
some early stage in its metonymising arc, the understanding of the
Latin word for 'city,' urbs,
merged with its juxtapositional notion of civitas,
deriving from civis,
meaning a resident of a city
(Online
Etymology Dictionary, 2017). This etymology endorses the general, if
ill-defined, view
that a city is the recognisable but quasi-mystical nexus of its
inhabitants with the buildings and topographies which are their
identifying physical idiom and expression. So we may feel entitled to
examine this question of a city “presented up close and at a
distance” in the rather dreamlike sense of a superpositioning of
psychologies, histories, cultures, human bodies, and architectural
structures. To examine a
complex and entangled entity called 'Dublin,' for instance, in the
flickering magic lantern of James Joyce's 'The Dead,' or another
called 'New York' through the fervent, angry, celebratory
affirmations that are the Harlem-words
of Langston Hughes, is to experience these cities
as liminal,
as subjective, simulacraic characterisations of two specific cities,
and as some deconstruction of the ultimate idea of city
itself. These cities, with their shadow cities beyond—Galway
City, or the greater New York surrounding Harlem—become
narratives and discourses, intertextual mosaics that are in some way
real, and yet appear dreamlike. They are embattled from without; they
bestride thresholds between old worlds (whose Baudelairean ghosts
still clutch at the sleeve), and new, burgeoning worlds attempting to
become, and we
read of them as
states
hovering indeterminately between historicity and mythopoeia. They are
liminal
too in the anthropological sense of ritualistically
incomplete, for these
evocations are in some sense ritual texts suggesting or hoping for
transformative social epiphanies and actualisations as their
conclusions;
and
the voices, characters, structures, terrains and events they present
are captured at
indefinite waypoints
between
their previous identities
and the indeterminate outcomes they foreshadow.
Liminal
is also the word used to translate another signifier for
in-betweenness: the Tibetan bardo,
representing an intermediate state between life and death. And the
Harlem we find in Langston Hughes is such a state, a physical place
whose earlier incarnations have died (though architectural and other
cultural shells remain), but whose human renaissance, whose next
manifestation, which Hughes is wishing into being, is as yet
incomplete—for instance, the 'Harlem Renaissance,' for all its
lyrical homages to black women, has at this point provided genuine
emancipation or equality for very few of them. In 'The Dead' too we
find everywhere this intermediate state: to read through the
dream-streets and iconography of Joyce's Dublin is to feel the mythic
Dead rise through the layers of the other Dublins that lie sleeping
below. And hovering above
Joyce's city are the two Biblical taxiarchs,
the totemic and militarised archangels: the uncertain,
conditional-tense Gabriel, and the affirmative and cohortative
Michael, existing in a state of cold war unrealised even by Gabriel;
both dead and undead in their different ways, contending to see which
of them, which of the dreams they represent—and whose version of
the
city—will
be most alive when the snow settles. And we feel this tension also in
the representation of the new Dublin middle class represented by
Gabriel, the “Western Briton” (Joyce in Norris, 2006, p. 165),
and by both Miss Ivors and his own wife, Gretta, representing the
Irish resurgence. These incomplete rituals of becoming
in these cities are, of course, enacted through words; through
images, musics and song; and through layers of excavated or
constructed myth. (Norris, 2006; Gates and
Appiah, 1993)
'The
Dead' is undoubtedly the text from 'Dubliners' that takes us most
deeply into the essential mythologies of Joyce's Dublin and its
'geologic' layering. Selecting any of the available texts from Hughes
to do the same level of representation initially appears more
difficult: these are saccades
of up-close Harlem life rather than the grand sweep of multi-layered
perspective which is 'The Dead.' Their Modernism is of another type
entirely, from a different continent, with locally differing, if
allied, socio-political imperatives; but they too give us insight
into the experience of a city, and of a people striving to orient and
reinvent itself in a cultural and politicised context which would
have been impossible for most Black people in the US only a few years
earlier, and which would still, even during the 1920s, have been
unimaginable in the still-resentful, erstwhile slave-states of the
American South with its lynching culture and Ku Klux Klan, and with
the 'Jim Crow Laws' operating as minimally-modified reworkings of the
'Black Codes.' As with the deep history in every corner of 'The
Dead,' Hughes's poems, despite their celebration of Harlem, still
evoke the poverty and suffering of the 1920s, and the deep histories
of slavery, and of Africa beyond. These realities too stare at us
from every shadow, and we stare down at Harlem, as with Dublin, in
this far wider historical context. As Hughes pithily states it in
'Not A Movie,' “there ain't no Ku Klux on a 133rd”, showing us both the joy of this huge
fact, and of Harlem as a decisive refuge and haven, but also the
roots that clutch, and the act of remembering the disenfranchising
south with its extremes of racist violence: “Well they rocked him
with road apples […] and whipped his head with clubs”. So while Joyce's and Hughes's texts give
us to differing degrees images of cities in paralysis—perfectly
illustrated by Gabriel's absurdist 'equestrian' perambulations around
a symbol of his own unrecognised oppression—they show us also
peoples historically oppressed and brutalised, but for whom there are
signs that change has begun, even if for both peoples that change
will, as we now know, yet be long and bloody. (Johnson, 2000)
“The
rhythm of life is a jazz rhythm, Honey,” states the incongruously
asexual Hughes in 'Lenox Avenue: Midnight', and this is approximately the first moment in history when
anyone could have written these revolutionary words, by which he
means that the frequencies and cadences of Jazz are somehow
mathematically observable and integral in nature, in the rain, on the
hissing and rumbling streets, even in the structures and idioms of
the city and its inhabitants. It is the rhythm of life and therefore
of sex and the creating of life, and he writes these words in the
context of Harlem at night, thereby celebrating and proclaiming the
sexed-up, dangerous, jazzed-up nightlife of Harlem. But unmistakably
too we sense the alienation and weariness in the poem; this is an
area where street cars rumble all night; haven though it may be, this
is not some quiet, salubrious zone of the city, and we have the
defiant binaries of Hughes peering at his own reflection in Harlem,
painting something “dark yet shining, harsh yet gentle, bitter yet
jubilant—a Freedom song sung in our midst” (Blesh in Gates and
Appiah, 1993. p. 41). But more important, perhaps, than Hughes's
words themselves—as Harold Bloom and Arnold Rampersad have
suggested—is the fact of him writing them here in this moment. In
some ways Hughes is his own opus, his “life a larger poem than any
he could write” (Bloom, 2007, p. 3), the detail of his words less
significant than the facts of his peripatetic and demonstrative life
(at a time when, in reality, few black people had such general
freedoms), and his proclaiming that this Harlem,
this emancipatory mind-thing,
is now possible here, so shortly after the dreadful history of
slavery and subsequent oppression, and of the South's de
facto
ethnic cleansing. So Hughes's poetry of Harlem is a flag waving in a
new breeze; it is a decisive snub; and at least in its authorial
intent, it asserts a district displacing the beating heart of New
York from 'The Great White Way,' or from Broadway, to Lenox Avenue,
which he unequivocally constructs as mythic. (Rampersad, in Bloom, 2007)
The
derivation of 'Jazz' remains uncertain (though elaborate associations
between 'Jezebel' and 'orgasm' and 'jism' and 'jasm' have been
proposed), but undoubtedly there is a sexualising of the Harlem scene
in 'Lenox Avenue: Midnight,' as there is in other Hughes poems such
as the rather infantilising 'Harlem Sweeties,' or 'Juke Box Love
Song.' And 'Jazz' is undoubtedly a new, sexy, magic word of the
city—recently declared 'the
word of the 20th
century' by the American Dialect Society (Wikipedia, 2017)—trumpeting
both the freedom and equality of black Americans, as the unmistakable
virtuosity of Jazz musicians left white visitors to Harlem with
little credible rationale for notions of racial supremacy. The word
is powerful, and as with many other black idioms and neologisms it
will go on to imprint itself upon the world. It is a new structure
raised first in New Orleans, but now here in Harlem, and when the
white folks awake they will see it towering there on the skyline—they
will wonder and resent and scoff, and finally they will embrace it.
So here we have Hughes spreading the word of this Jazzed-up new
freedom in a new black language, which is informal and
conversational, and rather more authentic than, for instance, the
non-Jamaican-vernacular poems of Claude McKay, which remain less
stylistically free, less urban and modern, and largely “imprisoned
in the pentameter” (Brathwaite in Jenkins, 2003, p. 285). Hughes,
albeit in a more readerly
sense than Joyce, is announcing some sort of revolution, and the
modern freedom of his language tells us something about the city and
its voices. But alongside the celebration we feel always the menace
of the city outside: that other city where few black people yet live,
the surrounding vastness of New York with its overarching and
watchful narratives filled with “images of impenetrable whiteness”
(Morrison, 1992, p. 33). “There ain't no Ku Klux on a 133rd” is
not merely a triumphal cry of escape from southern oppression: with
its rejection of other potential stopping points en
route
to Harlem (Washington, Baltimore, Newark), it is a decisive
identification of territory and a warning. So Hughes's poetry,
language and consciousness constitute, perhaps, a unique Modernism,
which will become profoundly influential, will lead, ultimately,
amongst other things, to the white Beat culture, to Kerouac and
Ginsberg et
al
emulating its Jazz styling. “The gods are laughing at us,” declares Hughes, becoming in some way one
of those laughing gods overarching the city which he himself is
instrumental in creating—and an enquiry of modern black Americans
for the purposes of this essay reveals that he is still regarded as
iconic in this process. Whatever the alleged limitations of his
poetry, Hughes, “well before his compeers [...] demonstrated how to
use black vernacular language and music […] as a poetic diction, a
formal language of poetry” (Gates, 1993, pp. x-xi), and we feel
keenly both the rising of this language from the shadows, and with it
the rising of a new city. (Wikipedia, 2017)
So
while 'The Dead' is perhaps more writerly, giving us
components rather than overt declarations, here too we are
presented with—or enabled to construct—a city whose spirit and
language are rising from the dead, and of actual or latent conflict.
The paintings of 'the balcony scene' and the 'little princes' are
effectively 'intertextual,' intersecting images of death, factional
violence, and blood feud, which we know are already spreading and
worsening across Dublin at this time, as though the 'Furies' (and
would Joyce have failed to notice the Erin in Erinyes,
the Greek name for the 'Furies?') are indeed rising, called
back, like Furey's name itself evoking some Homeric or 'Aeschylusian'
atavism of retribution and reclamation, in poetical and linguistic
opposition even to Gabriel's surname, 'Conroy,' which we can
reasonably deconstruct into a Joycean wordplay meaning with the
king. And in the references to the surrounding city, we have the
church on Haddington Road, next to Wolfe Tone Square; we have the
jarring binary juxtaposition of tyranny and rebellion in the
Wellington Monument near the site of the 'Phoenix Park Murders;' and
in all the references to imagery, to statuary, even to music and to
the food served, we have these same binary tensions that are
presented between Michael and Gabriel; between Galway and Dublin;
between the west and east coasts; even between Gabriel and Gretta in
the vast closing epiphany between them which says so much about
Dublin and Ireland and the rising (if partly invented) spirit of its
history and tradition. All of this is wonderfully captured in the
instant visual canonizing of Gretta captured against the stained
glass in John Huston's film of 'The Dead' like the the 'Spirit of
Éireann' (contemporaneous poster-icon adversary of the 'West
Briton') suddenly incarnate in Dublin, in that atavistic burst of
colour and song which has Gabriel suddenly transfixed, though still
failing to grasp the resurrection here, still in denial until the
final moments where he realises he has been competing with the
chthonic Michael, whose undead Gallic spirit and the discourse it
represents—which he had hoped was long exorcised from Gretta and
from Dublin—has been here throughout. And if he had only looked
more closely at the city and his wife, perhaps he might have seen it
all along.
.
Monday, October 16, 2017
Friday, October 13, 2017
Oh Carrie Anne (Regardless)
Carrie Anne Regardless
just when we thought dying was over for now
it might be some grey flood-taking
down trees in waves of static the way they
look it comes over you like that like
hands of bone like childhood hallucinations
voices through the pipework through the wall
behind the bed beneath the floor
like confinement or sickness
it is a grey flood (here, demon, here)
—boys/men we know have been scrawling dicks
on walls forever there they are in Herculaneum
those ochre fossil cocks fossilizing their testo-historic laughs—
it is the confounded performative
of a disputed will
it is the folds in the face and the cracks
where tears have spent themselves
where the dead rivers
of her or a voice breaking down the line
it is/they (it is they that) are the waves without lines
the wireless that is truly so (uplifted)
—in such spirit tribades we strid-
ulate as though set free by years by prime
numerics as saccades exiting suddenly
a nest and in this there is a distance and in
this there is a pleasure seen from many angles
and from above and below and the median—
an ethereal shriek then
a sugaring and the opposite of all
convention around the word
now rendered lethal to infants
our age has caught up at last
we have reached 8000 metres
there are no trees, no signs in the heavens
we have already started to die
fucking Jesus i am already in bed but look
look at the thing's face
.
just when we thought dying was over for now
it might be some grey flood-taking
down trees in waves of static the way they
look it comes over you like that like
hands of bone like childhood hallucinations
voices through the pipework through the wall
behind the bed beneath the floor
like confinement or sickness
it is a grey flood (here, demon, here)
—boys/men we know have been scrawling dicks
on walls forever there they are in Herculaneum
those ochre fossil cocks fossilizing their testo-historic laughs—
it is the confounded performative
of a disputed will
it is the folds in the face and the cracks
where tears have spent themselves
where the dead rivers
of her or a voice breaking down the line
it is/they (it is they that) are the waves without lines
the wireless that is truly so (uplifted)
—in such spirit tribades we strid-
ulate as though set free by years by prime
numerics as saccades exiting suddenly
a nest and in this there is a distance and in
this there is a pleasure seen from many angles
and from above and below and the median—
an ethereal shriek then
a sugaring and the opposite of all
convention around the word
now rendered lethal to infants
our age has caught up at last
we have reached 8000 metres
there are no trees, no signs in the heavens
we have already started to die
fucking Jesus i am already in bed but look
look at the thing's face
.
Friday, September 15, 2017
things just do not end (a literalist riff for now or notes for a poem maybe)
stuck deep and immovable it is as
background radiation one only occasionally now
tunes in but it is always there, can always be felt
still fizzing inside the aftermath of the blast
and what preceded that all now entwined and inseparable
so that now one grasps all of the clichés
and knows in fact that the heart itself is a brain
with forty thousand neurons too many
and it does not easily forget, though it fades,
as a plant denied light, unless dead,
ever awaits the return, ever feels the absence
as a presence, for something was changed
something that reacted and was changed
forever. biological, it feels, like sap or sex or screaming
or the echo anyway, which will not stop
and soon the second birthday and counting them all out
for humans are so easily broken
.
background radiation one only occasionally now
tunes in but it is always there, can always be felt
still fizzing inside the aftermath of the blast
and what preceded that all now entwined and inseparable
so that now one grasps all of the clichés
and knows in fact that the heart itself is a brain
with forty thousand neurons too many
and it does not easily forget, though it fades,
as a plant denied light, unless dead,
ever awaits the return, ever feels the absence
as a presence, for something was changed
something that reacted and was changed
forever. biological, it feels, like sap or sex or screaming
or the echo anyway, which will not stop
and soon the second birthday and counting them all out
for humans are so easily broken
.
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
moving with little differentiation from the pornography
to his girlfriend
and scarcely noticing
the difference beyond sensory enhancement
for there is some sort of wall
beyond which he cannot pass
which stops him and divides him
it is as if the air between them
existed in different planes
and he sees little of the forest
within her with its bright birds
its shrieks its filtered sunlight
its loam and and great age
and its songs of forests and feminity
in any rightful world one would have to say
he didn't deserve this complex creature
and he thinks he deserves better
even with such poor ability to assess such value
.
to his girlfriend
and scarcely noticing
the difference beyond sensory enhancement
for there is some sort of wall
beyond which he cannot pass
which stops him and divides him
it is as if the air between them
existed in different planes
and he sees little of the forest
within her with its bright birds
its shrieks its filtered sunlight
its loam and and great age
and its songs of forests and feminity
in any rightful world one would have to say
he didn't deserve this complex creature
and he thinks he deserves better
even with such poor ability to assess such value
.
Friday, September 01, 2017
The Trump Jump
so there comes this day
when Trump, all the shame
of what he is
somehow settling in him,
jumps
and the press are there
and the right wing dicks are there
and we are all there
and he jumps
but it's not like
the arc of some graceful bird
because halfway down he gets stuck, impaled
on a flagpole
or some other protuberance
and he wriggles there
and slowly dies
and his blood runs down the side of the building
in a big dark streak
and afterwards we walk home
wondering how long
they'll leave him up there turning black
having his eyes pecked out
by any starlings that happen by
and wish to consume
today's fake views
.
when Trump, all the shame
of what he is
somehow settling in him,
jumps
and the press are there
and the right wing dicks are there
and we are all there
and he jumps
but it's not like
the arc of some graceful bird
because halfway down he gets stuck, impaled
on a flagpole
or some other protuberance
and he wriggles there
and slowly dies
and his blood runs down the side of the building
in a big dark streak
and afterwards we walk home
wondering how long
they'll leave him up there turning black
having his eyes pecked out
by any starlings that happen by
and wish to consume
today's fake views
.
Thursday, August 10, 2017
Oh whatever
It's 'choose your stupid haircut' time. Really, it's as simple as that. And if you get it wrong the world dies. Well you asked for reality TV. Mwah! :0)
pop song
see in the dishonesty
we have become enemies
seeing each other
through the trees
each of us effectively
on our knees
thank god
for this
breeze
.
we have become enemies
seeing each other
through the trees
each of us effectively
on our knees
thank god
for this
breeze
.
parenthood
somehow levitating in that moment
into the treetops and the drips and leaves
showering all around with the earthy
wet feel and smell of one's children
.
into the treetops and the drips and leaves
showering all around with the earthy
wet feel and smell of one's children
.
wildflowers
the wildflowers never happened as everything
was too ill, too disabled, too uncomfortable
as though a grey malaise of sky had been drawn in
bringing shouting and storms, and despite the best
intentions in the world the wildflowers just didn't
ever
happen
for how would they in such fog and tempest?
.
was too ill, too disabled, too uncomfortable
as though a grey malaise of sky had been drawn in
bringing shouting and storms, and despite the best
intentions in the world the wildflowers just didn't
ever
happen
for how would they in such fog and tempest?
.
Saturday, August 05, 2017
some huge bright day
in a stolen open-top car
we drive towards a cliff edge
and I ask her
to marry me
for as long as it takes
for a blowjob maybe
or to change her name
change everything
and both of us sharing a bottle
of something
we drive towards a cliff edge
and I ask her
to marry me
for as long as it takes
for a blowjob maybe
or to change her name
change everything
and both of us sharing a bottle
of something
pass it back, I say
for we might never hit
maybe she says
for we might never hit
maybe she says
when we hit the bottom
but not fucking before
I need to see commitment
and it's her turn with the bottle
as we go over, laughing
yes she says,
yes, to this
down through the low clouds
but not fucking before
I need to see commitment
and it's her turn with the bottle
as we go over, laughing
yes she says,
yes, to this
down through the low clouds
the trees, the whipping branches
that break the windscreen
that lacerate our wild, bloody faces
that break the windscreen
that lacerate our wild, bloody faces
pass it back, I say. it's now or never
got to be joking, she says
crackling through the broken radio
that was your last shot ever
and I look
and seriously no one is there
crackling through the broken radio
that was your last shot ever
and I look
and seriously no one is there
last thing I hear
is nothing
is nothing
laughing like the sky
far above
far above
where birds now gather
.
Sunday, July 09, 2017
Rachel Jones Uproar. On the Day of her Death.
as though one should hold upon high
high high they cry but no
messing now is the winter of a life
less lived but if we charit
then no less oh stop there is
and is almost and is not
listen, creep. I knew and knew not
but it crawls
upon just now death, its yellow/grey bony place
its cessation, its evacuation, its nice thing
that we think of as
things as though perhaps
some spirit were near (here, spirit,
one could, hey no, here, serious now
spirit
(here, spirit!)
not help but feel that, and want to reach
her at the utmost
and say
SOMETHING
and feel the birth
of religion/shamanism/the caribou fucking
drear the vast unforgiving wall of grey
the unappointed
death just now i have been in the presence
of death and other death the other language
frog creature leaping with deep resonance
into the haiku of nothing
I cried. clumsy. ill-fitting. that's all I had.
goodnight, powerful woman x
.
.
high high they cry but no
messing now is the winter of a life
less lived but if we charit
then no less oh stop there is
and is almost and is not
listen, creep. I knew and knew not
but it crawls
upon just now death, its yellow/grey bony place
its cessation, its evacuation, its nice thing
that we think of as
things as though perhaps
some spirit were near (here, spirit,
one could, hey no, here, serious now
spirit
(here, spirit!)
not help but feel that, and want to reach
her at the utmost
and say
SOMETHING
and feel the birth
of religion/shamanism/the caribou fucking
drear the vast unforgiving wall of grey
the unappointed
death just now i have been in the presence
of death and other death the other language
frog creature leaping with deep resonance
into the haiku of nothing
I cried. clumsy. ill-fitting. that's all I had.
goodnight, powerful woman x
.
.
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