please accept that my mind isn't right
and that I am mad
that daffodils grow out of my ears
it's been a struggle, this not being right
all of it, you know
shit, sometimes I wanted to jump in rivers
in a circus way. of course, to show off
I just want to tell you that I love you
I guess that doesn't mean much at this moment
when it all seems so strange and selfish
but I can't go on. I just can't. Oh I so
wish I could be there for you
I so wish that I could
but somehow I can't. I hope
you can forgive me one day.
My boys, honestly
I love you with all that I am.
Can I tell you one more time before dying
that I love you?